Limbo: Day Two

As expected, nothing new happened today. We're told the insurance adjuster will come tomorrow; perhaps then we can begin to pick up the pieces. It seems like I'm constantly realizing another item that will need to be replaced. Today it was silverware. 

I really am trying to stay positive, but sometimes I feel Loss.  A family member's cat came asking for some pets and the second I laid my hand on him I wanted to burst out crying. I really loved my kitty, but part of me wonders if he's just my outlet for release. 

Goodbye my handsome boy, I'll see you again one day. 

Now Entering Limbo... Wait Time, Eternity?

What is one traumatic event you could never imagine happening to you? A natural disaster, a house fire, a horrible vehicle wreck? From the outside we see these things happening to others, but we never really believe it could happen to us. Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined losing my home to a fire, and now, on the first day of trying to put the pieces back together, I can't stop picturing it.

My poor, sweet kitty... I can't stop seeing his lifeless body. He looked so peaceful, like he never even knew the smoke was suffocating him. I just want to rub his nose one more time, and tell him what a good kitty he was. I loved that stupid cat so much. "I am Jay's broken heart."

So today was day one. We wait in limbo wondering what the next step is. How do we even begin to recover when we don't even know that extent of the damage? 

-23:06 March 30th, 2015